Dear Diary

I'm currently reading Ang Mga Kaibigan ni Mama Susan by Bob Ong as my non-academic book. It's style of writing is like journal entries. The main character of the story kept writing on his journal even if it's no longer required, as he started writing one because of a subject that requires the class to submit a journal. He just wanted to continue writing to be able to express his feelings, as if talking to other people, when he has no one to talk to. So far, the book is a good read, just skipping the scary parts. You know why if you really know me. Hahaha.

Diary, journal, online journal, blog. So many names but all pertains to one thing. I rarely call the blog/ diary a journal because I spent 4 years of college associating journal to Chemistry laboratory. Seriously. I remember that I had my first diary when I was in Grade 2. I think I forced Mommy to give me one. And I still have it! Hahahah! But what do I know about diaries at that age? All I know was that I wanted to write down the daily activities of my life, and funny I wrote my entries in numbered list. After that first diary, I believe that's when I started to give a name to my succeeding diaries; I named her Jamie. I don't know why, I think I like that name way back. Also, I started writing in paragraphs. I think I have at least 5 diaries all in all. I don't remember where I put them, they must be somewhere here in my room. Must look for them!

I was in high school when I learned about online journals. My first blog was livejournal, but I couldn't remember my username months later, so I made another one, but this time here in blogger. I updated my blog often until such time that I got very busy that I stopped updating it and ended up deactivating my account. When I regretted deactivating it, I made another one with LJ again. And now, here's my blogger again and I simultaneously update this and LJ.

Sometimes, I wonder how it feels if I am still writing in diaries. Maybe I would've said more as it'll be more private than having your thoughts blogged online. As for my online blogs, I do not mind if no one's reading them, but sometimes I am a lot curious who reads my blogs; who appreciates my thoughts, who don't mind what I wanted to rant about or something. I remember, few years ago, I was talking to a cousin-in-law and she was telling me that it's good to write in a diary but in order to keep its privacy until you die, you better burn it. I wonder how many people still write in diaries nowadays...

Talking to Strangers

Don’t talk to strangers. That’s what we were told when we were younger. But as for me, shy that I am, I really don’t talk to anyone that I do not know. My friends can attest to that.

So anyway, this afternoon, when I went it the train, I sat just near the door so that I won’t have a hard time alighting the train when we arrive at Guadalupe Station. Luckily, the area that I chose has aircon so it’s just perfect as it was oh-so hot outside. When I was settled on my seat, a lady sat beside me and commented that she’s happy about the aircon. I acknowledged her and she started talking about the heat and how it gives headache and I was just nodding and smiling since I don’t know what else to say (see, I’m not that conversationalist with strangers). Then she asked me something, and I thought she was asking about that time so I answered her, “5 o’clock po” while pointing at my watch. And she said, “Ah hindi, tanong ko kung nurse ka,” to which I answered, “Ah, hindi po, veterinary medicine po.” She started asking me about veterinary stuff, such as how we handle/restrain dogs, how about when dogs are pregnant (she was surprised that dogs can undergo caesarean section—did I say this correctly?), have I handled snakes and monkeys, and so on.  She then asked where I go home. When I told her where, she remarked that she lives also on the same municipality, but on the opposite end. And our topic became Ondoy, how she saw some places near their house to be very flooded and stuff. When we reached Guadalupe Station, I walked ahead of her.

And now I was thinking, should I have said goodbye to her? Because I didn’t, I walked ahead of her, way ahead of her actually. Although I have not said much, I had fun talking with her. And I guess it’s not that bad to talk to strangers, but of course, you just have to watch out what you are to say.

100 truths

Because I'm sort of not yet in the mood to study as of the moment, I just decided to answer this, which I got from a friend who tagged me on FB.

1. Real name: Bridget Co

2. Nickname(s): Bea, Bei, Bey, Bridge, Jet, Bebong

3. Zodiac Sign: Cancer

4. Male or female: Female.

5. Elementary: pasig community school

6. Middle School: -

7. High School: makati hope christian school

8. College: de la salle university- manila, de la salle araneta university

9. Hair color: black

10. Tall or Short: tall

11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.

12. Phone or Camera: both

13. Health Freak: no

14. Orange or Apple: orange

15. Do you have a crush on someone: ohyeah!

16. Eat or Drink: eat!

17. Piercings: None

18. Pepsi or Coke: Coke

19. Been in an airplane: yes

20. Been in a relationship: Yes.

21. Been in a car accident: no

22. Been in a fist fight: no

23. First piercing: when i was still young, earrings.

24. Best friend: they know who they are =)

25. First award: best in something... back in nursery pa. hahahaha

26. First crush: i don't remember anymore. hahaha

27. First word: i don't remember

29. Last person you talked to in person: dad

30. Last person you texted: Genina

31. Last person you watched a movie with: high school classmates

32. Last food you ate: mango

33. Last movie you watched: bridesmaid

34. Last song you listened to: dancing queen

35. Last thing you bought: clay

36. Last person you hugged: hmm... someone among my friends. i just don't remember who.

37. Food: pasta, pizza.

38. Drink: Water. juices

39. Bottoms: pants

40. Flowers: roses, lantana, rosal

41. Animal: dogs, cats, rabbit, hamster, guinea pig

42. Color: orange and violet

43. Movies: romcom. haahaha

44. Subjects: parasitology hihihihihi

HAVE YOU EVER: (Put an X in the brackets if yes)

45. [x] fallen in love with someone.

46. [] celebrated Halloween.

47. [x] had your heart broken.

48. [x] went over the texts on your cell phone.

49. [] had someone like me

51. [] got pregnant.

52. [] had an abortion.

53. [x] did something I regret.

54. [x] broke a promise.

55. [x] hid a secret.

56. [x] pretended to be happy.

57. [x] met someone who changed your life.

58. [x] pretended to be sick.

59. [x] left the country.

60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.

61. [x] cried over the silliest thing.

62. [] ran a mile

63. [] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.

65. [x] hated someone

66. [x] stayed single for 2 years. (more than 2 years)

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating : nothing

68. Drinking: water

69. Listening: glee project

70. Sitting/Laying: computer chair

71. Plans for today: study. hahaha

72. Waiting: waiting... for something?

73. Want kids: yeah, eventually.

74. Want to get married: yeah, eventually.

75. Career: still studying, but i want to be a successful veterinarian soon.

76. Lips or eyes: eyes.

77. Shorter or taller: Same.

78. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.

81. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.

82. Looks or personality: definitely personality! bonus na ang looks.

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost eyes/contacts: nope

84. Snuck out of a house: nope

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: nope

86. Killed somebody: no!

87. Broken someones heart: nope

88. Been in love: yes.

89. Cried when someone died: yes. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: most of the time yes

91. Miracles: yeah

92. Love at first sight: before. i don't now.

94. Santa Claus: i used to!

95. Aliens: no

96. Ghosts: yes!!!!!!!

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: yeah

98. Do you know who your real friends are: i guess so

99. Do you believe in God: YES!

100. Post as 100 truths: okaaaaaaay

Girls' Night Out

It’s been almost 7 years since I graduated from high school. And it’s been about 3 years since I last saw most of them. Why? Because ever since I stopped med school, I stopped showing at get-togethers.

Anyway, they decided to meet up last Saturday afternoon, only informing me the Friday before that. Since I wanted to relax a bit after the prelim exams, I confirmed my attendance to them. I arrived way early than that of the meeting time so I just roamed around. A few minutes after 430pm, one by one arrived; Michelle, Abby, Ms. Gulapa and Gretchel. We went to watch Bridesmaids (good movie if you’re gonna watch it with your girl friends, not with your family. It’s a feel good movie, R18 nga lang but they made it R-13 here in the country). After the movie, we went to meet Sarah, who was accompanied by her sister, at the food court and went to hunt for a good restaurant to eat. Since it was late already and it’s a Saturday, most restaurants that we decided were already full. T.G.I.Friday’s full as well but we’re lined up as second to be seated. While eating, Charmaine arrived. After dinner, they wanted to have dessert, so off to find Café Breton; however, Sarah had to leave earlier as she’s not comfortable with driving at night, I think.

I had fun that night even if I arrived home almost midnight. Thanks to Charm by the way for giving me a ride home! Maybe it’s my pride that prevented me from going to the get-togethers when I stopped med school. I guess they were somehow waiting for me to be a successful physician of our class, but I failed them. As to prevent a lot of questions as to why I stopped and stuff, I just stopped showing up. But now, I promise that as long as my schedule allows me to go out, I will join them.

So, this is me with Sarah (in the middle) and Eugelyn, Sarah's younger sister. Sarah and I go way back kindergarten years, we went to the same school all the way to college.

I am with Gretchel in this picture. Gretchel's one of my close friends in high school.

Of Falling in Love and Breaking Up

If you’re my friend that I’ve made chika about this, or you’re reading my blog(s) for quite some time now, or even a gossipmonger, then you’ve probably heard this a million times from me. But then again, I will be talking about it once more, making me sound like a broken record. And I promise, after this piece, I will not talk about this anymore.

When I decided to take up Veterinary Medicine, I made myself concentrate on studying and forget about falling in love with anyone. I succeeded. Had a crush on someone but got a bit “brokenhearted” when I learned that he’s already taken. But since it’s just a crush, it didn’t really affect me. And eventually, I have a friend which I never thought I’d fall for. Let’s just say that at first he wasn’t the type of guy that I will fall for. I was and still comfortable around him whenever we talk. He’s always making me laugh at the right moment that I need a good laugh, and I think somehow we complement each other and we’re open to each other. There may be some things that we don’t agree on, but we meet halfway. I like him. I really, really, really like him that sometimes whenever I’m walking along the streets, I would suddenly think a guy would look like him. Funny/weird but true. I really thought it would be him but of course it’s absurd because he doesn’t live anywhere near where I live. And I know that I’m just a friend for him. Although someone told me that there might be more from his side, I somehow doubt it. As I’ve always said, I do not want to expect anything at all but I’m open to possibilities. Come what may. If God wants us to be together, then time will come for that. If not, then we’re just better off as friends.

About few months ago, a friend was hinting that she cooled off with her boyfriend. I thought it was just a joke at first since I still see pictures of the two of them together on their respective Facebook accounts. I tried asking her numerous times for the real score but she either changes our topic or just kept mum. And I respect her for that. I just thought that if she’s ready to share, she will just text me. True enough, about a month ago, she confided that they both agreed that they will not text each other for a week since the guy wants time to think. She told me that she’s itching to text him every minute and I kept telling her not to text him since they had an agreement. Instead, I told her that she should just divert her messages to me and pretend that I’m the guy so that she can still send the messages just to get it out of her system.

About a day before their one week agreement is up, my friend texted me that she is officially single. The guy texted her, thanking her for everything and it’s better for them to be friends. And as I’ve always told my friends that just came from a breakup, I told her to cry it out that it may make her feel better even for a moment. She told me that she’s still okay and has somehow accepted that it really is over. To make the long story short, she denied the situation, she bargained again and again for another chance with him (which he insisted that no more, they should just remain as friends), and denied it more.

Few days before my friend’s class started, we met up with an ex of hers, who is now her good friend. With her is a notebook where she wrote letters for her guy, from the day they agreed not to communicate up to the day before we met. And on the first day of their classes, she informed me that the guy wasn’t carrying anything with him to school except for the notebook where she wrote letters and they were together the whole day, as if they were still a couple. Right now, it seems that the guy has found a new girl. But my friend said that it hurts her but she will still do communicate with the guy as she believes that it’s the way for her to move on. Just over the weekend, my friend wanted to study at Starbucks and of all people she would invite to join her studying, she contacted him. And he instantly agreed to join her.

Ang sa akin lang, no offense to my friend or to anyone as this is my own opinion, if you really love someone, why let her go pero you would still act like a couple after breaking up? Edi sana you didn’t breakup with her na lang in the first place. If you want to move on and heal your broken heart, it’s best to stop having communication with him of any sort. It hurts to see the person not hurting anymore and with another girl while you still are crying and maybe cursing the person for breaking up with you, but if you still communicate with him then you are adding more injury on your side. Siguro nga every individual has his or her own way of moving on, but if you said you will move on, panindigan mo; huwag mong babawiin ang sinabi mo. Don’t let a break up or a heartache affect your studies or work or your life itself. Let’s just remind ourselves that a break up teaches us a lesson that will help us grow more mature in terms of love and become a stronger person. If the two of you are really meant to be together in the end, there will be a way for you to end up together again, don’t force it. However, if you’re not meant to be, just let it stay that way. Have a proper closure.

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NVAT

After a little more than a month of gruesome waiting for the results of NVAT, it finally came out today and I PASSED! And I am really shock until now as I made wild guesses on most of the questions, especially on Math, Chemistry and Physics. And to top all this shock, a more shocking surprise came in; I ranked 5 among all the students from DLSAU who took the exam. God is really good.

On the other note, summer classes will end tomorrow. This one month of summer classes is one of a kind; all the drama and laughter will never be forgotten.